When I sift through volumes of information that I’ve written down and find other things that I haven’t, I’m not sure what it is that I like about this game called law school. Well, to be more accurate, I probably don’t even to stop to think about that. I instead get tired or have the sudden urge to get up and walk around. I want to go outside and let the fresh air fill my lungs.

It’s been another day where I’m at the library 12 hours from when I first arrived in the morning. I’ve made lots of progress, but as is the general course of things, I have not come to the point where I can stop and say that I know a majority of the material I need to know. There’s never that moment, which was reachable when studying for undergraduate exams, where you’ve reached the level of mastery. It just does not come. And no one reaches that point. No one. What is the point of this again?

I feel the finals funk full well. I will push through it, and I will ignore all of my gut feelings to the contrary. I will ignore a goal of satisfaction in the end result. I will instead suck it up and say that it is well enough to get through it. I don’t even mean that negatively. I have reshaped my idea of success to say that it is just as great to say I am finished with a course and will not have to retake it.

Tomorrow is a new day, and I will set out to do good things as I did today. I am happy with my progress today. I will make the most of the time given to me, and I will pray for the best. What a wild ride it has been this five quarters. That truly is five more than I initially expected to complete. God is gracious in that regard. I have many things for which to be grateful, and I must remember that.

There are many lessons to follow what I have already learned. I await them with anticipation and humility. Summer stands on the horizon. It is real, tangible, and palpable in the reduced weight to the air. Once again, I am excited at its prospects. At the same time, I must batten down the hatches and work as hard as is required of me. In seven days time, I will feel liberated, and I will feel very proud of the accomplishment that has already passed. It will feel so good.